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As you can tell by the titel that my mums back, she was back on thursday so i had thursday and friday off. Not much to say reakky nothing happend, thursdayi was just cleaning my room helped my mum get settled when she came home and then chilled. Friday i did some of the house work my mum was on the sofa resting, then my nan came up an redid everything i did saying it wasnt good enough! i wish she would just fuck off and keep her flipping noes out of our family stuff! i know she my mums mother and i should be nice cos she's ill but part of me is happy that she is ill. I dont want to see her suffer i just want her to piss off outa this world!!!!

So anyways steph came over and we hung out listend to cds ect, rob was out with his mates so we had a girly night in. We then played sims and we had a blast and we were just talking alnight. The time flew it went really quick cos soon it was nidnight. I needed to get some sleep then cos i was going out with maddy, beth and some of beths sisiters then me we are going overmaddys house so that should be gooooood!

nwt much more to write i better get ready then!

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Every single day is like a battle, I have to battle agaisnt myself andfind strength to get up early, i have to find strength to go to school and to leasons but what happens if you cant find the strength? What then? Does that make you weak?
I have been giving up a lot recently when i should be trying my best to fight. I know this might not make sense but i was having a convo with someone and well i just though that really.History keeps repeating itself and its hurting me, they cant see that, i wish they could. Maybe its me but its happend so many times that i am worried.......Maybe i should relax but i cant i am on edge all the time and insted of facingmy probbs i run away from them.
I need a fag, havent had one in ages dying AHHHH! need to buy some!

School was okay lunch was good had a sing song and a dance My mums okay should be out 2moz so i get 2moz and friday off school ! Missing Demi -------->
she is on hols hope shes having fun!!
feeling low then high low then high if you get me.... i hate feeling like this. I hate me. Grrr me me me thats all i talk about. Grr. Found out that my auntie is not just ignoring me but my mum and dad aswell.
My mum is in hopspital she doesnt even visit, doesnt call, no card! i mean steph came to see my mu and she isnt even related to us! my auntie didnt even bother giving my mum a bday card nor my uncle! steph did that shows how much steph love and cares for us than our own family!! luvs ya steph!!!-------->

My uncle hasnt even called us, i know he is miles away but he normally calls us every couple of weeks now he hasnt called since 3 months ago. what have we done to upset them? nothing thats what and then they act like that, fuck them!family are ment to stick together so are friends but hey familys are stupid at times! they really have hurt me, me and Jenna used to be joint at the hip she came on hols to france with us, i went over hers every week and now look wont even talk to her own brother let alone nice! well thanks for reading this crap i just needed to have a rant all better now, well a tad better

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So today ahhh well i dont know had a cooking exam went okay i guess but hey ho school was crap just boring I saw him today didnt say much he asked me if i wanted to go to this thing i said no because its crap and then i blanked him. I went to visit my mum but my nan came today so we had to pick her up. She kept farting in the car and it stunk! i wasnt aloud to wind down the window cos it was pissing down with rain. So she basically give me hardly anytime to speak to my mum then she wanted to leave early and of course what my nan wants she gets so i had to leave and then my dad was still in there for about 15 mins making sure my mum was comfey and i bet they were talking about me.she has to keep her oxygen mask on as her oxygen levels are low.i dint get to see much of her 2night my nansaid a lot of stuff 2night and kept bringing up the past i know this is mean but you dont know her so i am going to say it- "I wish she was dead so i could spit on her grave and sing ding dong the witch is dead!"

also in skwl someone asked me if i wanted a b/f then when i said no she asked if i was a lez, she also thinks my friend is one 2 i dont know where she got the rumors from. I have nothing agaisnt people like that but i am not one, i just dont think there is any point dating yet i have my life ahead of me and i dont want to be dealing with 'boyfriend shit' right now i got enough shit to build a castle. I have a HUGE bad stomach pains rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i wish i wasnt a girl, i wish i was a rabbit! me off to snuggle under the covers with a DVD


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Hello sorry i just wanted to make a quick note. My mum is okay just sleepy. I went to see her and she had the oxygen mask on and she was sleeping, but then she woke and was talking to me and stuff. So yea she is okay. I'm glad but i am going to see if i can get two more days off school. Not 2moz though as i have a cooking exam in the morn. V nrev incase i screw it up but it should be okay...... ACH i dont know i have visions of me making a mess of it all. Anyway i am off to bed and i will update 2moz when i come back from the hospital! sorry i havent read any of you deviations but i will get round to it soon!

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Hello just thought i will keep you up to date with things. I had a blast at my friends sleepover on friday we had so much fun we had a laugh and i felt better as i have been feeling kinda low cos of my teacher. This is going to be a short entry as my mum has got to go to the hosp soon for her op and i will be going down my nans for the day then visiting her in the night. I have to go down my house as my dad doesnt think i should be on my own. I hate my nan and i dont want to go down but i'll just take my laptop and some dvds that should keep me sane. At least i get a day off skwl. If i had gone in i would have had to spend a double lesson with that freaking teacher, he has bad photos of me from the trip like there is one of me with a chip sticking out of my mouth!!!! what he does is puts them on a big screen and pokes fun at them in front of the class and i already am shamed about the way i look at the mo. Anyway best be off

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